hais feeling really very sad. i jus called him. got twice he cancelled my call. later he answer den he said he still at the place. saying he was tired. aint i tired too? i waited for his call / sms since tues when he said he will look for me, its a lie? suddenly i cried. after hanging up e fone, i dropped a msg saying " forget abt me bah " am i cruel? i dunno if its selfish to get angry or not. but even if im at chalet or mahjong-ing i do msg him or call him. is it fun is so much more impt to him den jus talking to me for a moment? maybe im stupid or selfish but i felt that his fun is more impt den me bah. but i also wants him to be happy. maybe he is getting irritated by those msg-es n calls i made to him. i jus felt very sad over this moves. i shall not disturb him if only he comes and find me. if he doesnt, forget it bah. blame my nuisances for losing him?