i dont know wad had happen. i felt like ... hais i dunno too.. my tears jus dropped. isnt promises a promise? why everytime so much last min thing changes? certain things can be changed certain things cant i guess. sometimes i really guess, letting him go is better. at times i know i asked for too much. can he take it? i not sure, he didnt even say a thing... today wanted to go out becos he say he going for zak last min told me, i decided to go out becos i really down when he said he will accompany me ... but end up i didnt go out . hais.. n i waited for him... i didnt wan him to know im angry or upset becos of it. so i just dont wanna move ard. now he going for the next zak? did he even remember anything he said to me? end up he went... perharps its time to quit maple? n letting everything go? im so bad taking up so much of his time xD~ ew~...

yawns~ am getting prepared to slp now .. hohoho ~ well kinda moody now. i dunno why is that guy cant say things properly ? even if they haf something to do ?

getting real tired staying at this hse. the nags, the arguements n the dislike . hais.

i felt that recently i get angry very easily >.< hais. maybe becos of my family that makes me real sick abt it. wtf right? this week is a heart breaking week man ! rwar~

ew~ morning xD~

ytd didnt go sch. rwar ! went to paya lebar sing post to shop shop with ling, b4 that ... arghh ling was late! until i drizzle~ >.<~ sob . after that walk ard the area den went to causeway pt! bought a shorts n a bag xD~ hehee... den slack ard ling's place n left @ 230. slept @ 4am. wahahhaa~ hmmm.... was kinda angry last night ! rwar! i've been calling dar until this morning 9plus! until wo wu ke nai her i called his hse >.<>.<

suddenly am into this song >.<

Lin Jun Jie - Da Nan Ren Xiao Nu Hai

不是我的错我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火
也许大男人真的很男人
也许大男人没那么男人
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一天说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

my grandma oso funny. say wanna intro me bf >.< n ask me do i haf a bf? when wanna bring him back? -_- ~

someone owe me ...

10000x kisses.
20 kisses.
1movie.
1mega.
1ring.
1heart. 52 +7hrs. ( 59hrs)
1 eyemo.
1chalet.
1 3d2n.
1breakfast xD

<33 dar xD~ hahaha..

hais feeling really very sad. i jus called him. got twice he cancelled my call. later he answer den he said he still at the place. saying he was tired. aint i tired too? i waited for his call / sms since tues when he said he will look for me, its a lie? suddenly i cried. after hanging up e fone, i dropped a msg saying " forget abt me bah " am i cruel? i dunno if its selfish to get angry or not. but even if im at chalet or mahjong-ing i do msg him or call him. is it fun is so much more impt to him den jus talking to me for a moment? maybe im stupid or selfish but i felt that his fun is more impt den me bah. but i also wants him to be happy. maybe he is getting irritated by those msg-es n calls i made to him. i jus felt very sad over this moves. i shall not disturb him if only he comes and find me. if he doesnt, forget it bah. blame my nuisances for losing him?

hais. i really cant standing staying at home again ! my grandma ran away from home on friday ! n came back on sunday. she even tell me that she wun come back, n sunday my cousin called me n say she wanan come back but she wan my parents to go fetch her. isit really my dad's fault? everyone knows that he talks very loudly. that doesnt mean shouting isnt it? telling me the problems to me instead of him I DONT HAF THE ANSWER. n i get very angry when i sees my grandma eating ice cream. 1 day she eat 2 - 4. she got diabeties! zzzz den my mom always come back afternoon keep making a big fuss, when my grandma wash the clothes n etc... but sometimes my grandma oso ! zzzzz. tell her dun touch oso touch den dunno where she put it. n i didnt see my dad for few days. realy getting sick n tired of all these arguements. rwarr

back from blogging, lately was kinda busy with my chalet chalet n chalet!

started going chalet since last thurs n i didnt attend sch =x had mahjong mahjong n mahjong from thurs to fri only. its michelle mei de Bday. haha. after that accompany my fren to buy HP, he said he didnt want to buy the same as me but in the end he bought the same as me ~ rofl~ den headed to michelle mei's hse ... wahahaha slept from 2pm plus to 1am >.< so tired. den 4 plus go home. aw~ let my sweet dardar wait for me so long T_T sry o dar. if i neglected you for those days. yi huo bu hui le ! muacks

and today i jus came back from chalet again ! ew~ just that didnt mahjong. hahaa ~ the chalet only me lollipop n xiaoling n i persuaded a guy to come down after work too. lols. which is xiaoling buddy =x she asked him to come but he dun wan, den i " po lo soh " him to come den he come =x b4 that was 3 woman's bbq =x wahaha.. and our sausage got ate up by meowmeow >.< eee.

ew~ this morning kinda bad mood. T_T~ i sms-ed n call dar for many times and he said will msg me but i waiting till 6 am, no msg or calls. hais~ i kept wondering isit becos past few days keep chalet n i neglected him ? ew~ but i oso very bad. keep wanting to talk to him >.< but he so busy n said will call me de but nvr T_T~ oso i find him de. after having breakfast i called him den he ans. shld i be happy or not? but by e moment my tears almost fell off. i dunno why but.. hais... maybe i disturb him too much le bah. i shall not disturb him n wait for him to find me instead bah. ~.~

wanted to book the kumpong hut chalet next week, which dar already said ok to it. last min say haf to "ask / inform " his parents. at that moment when i abt to book he tells me that when he says ok ?! sometimes i really dunno wad he thinking, im very " mao tun" awhile say go his place den say later his parents come back how ? den awhile say chalet, den later say so many things again. i shldnt have ask anything further in future. arghhh! today is the 6th day i didnt get to see him. maybe im too annoying? i shld jus sit down n wait for him bah.

anyone has recommendation for nice food? do drop me a tag.

yoyoyo~ so tired. haha my dar bath so long 1 hr liao ! rwar~

ytd was kinda busy day o. slept at 4 plus woke up @ abt 9plus to go Courts den go meet parents go out. so many yrs later den whole family out tgt! omg im so happy. n go marketing too. after that meet ling suppose to make passport but unfortunately she cant make it till next yr n we headed to bugis to shop ! ahhh n was late for sch ! she say she emo den dun wan go sch so earli ! aw~ n i was in the diff class with her until my fren called me n tell me that its possible to change e class ! omg! n im not in sch. well i sent a email to the in-charge hope she get it! till now i havent get her reply. aw~

just now went to meet dar for movie ! aw~ tio bully. haha watched 881 again. for me is the 2nd time for him is 1st. n i missed Secret. eww. no more le. anyone gonna buy me e DVD ma? T_T sob. den headed to orchard meet ling for dinner n went to e2max for audi for an hr. den go home !~ both me n dar very tired. but dar more tired den me. hahaha~ sry o dar ~

dar where's e thingy u owe me !!! ahhhh i jus remember. ewww. kns. pian ren again T_T. bath 20mins now 40mins liao la!!!!!!! rwar~ jus now told me will be away for 2 days. denver say 3 days ~ eeeee.... 3 days cannot see u n hear u . so bad! angry liao nah !!! sob.

bye.

well jus finished bathing ! im xiang xiang ok ! yea jus met kevin dar ! ROFL! my 1st delp maple bf i met! went to chill @ cabana as usual! my spot! with ling. n went bowling too. wee i won! xD~

woke up kinda early. kinda tired too. rofl ~

today had sour sour sour~ sob. c2p dar!

now finding new cash suit~ hehehee~

later update

woot. ^^ tired day.

well today haf nth much jus online for quite a very long hours. am getting tired now =)

had done some GPQ. thx dora aiai for the members n thx dar for the " bombing lols. n thx denver for the death >.<

yea~ had a talk with guardian. sometimes i really think why is he doing so much ? seeking attention? lols.

later gonna have a gd rest ! yeayea! kinda happy with my current dar! i can get to slp well ! and slp enuff. unlike last time. im chasing for the time. n not enjoying my slp at all. all i shld say, i would haf to slp lesser when am with guardian to be on his pace? hahas. am not saying he is not gd oso. the current one, we would talk ? msn? haf some little games? least we dun chat or stick to maple only ! rofl ~ feeling that my life has abit of changes. that im not so tired now . =)

yeap! had alot of fun nowadays! =)

drew some pics in msn too ! muahahaha. upload tmr. now net too slow le >.<

SI DAR!! u gonna died @ this :

''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
i forgot ur blogname lol
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
1 kiss
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
muacksss
ΒӘĽĽ owned ҚҼV1И says:
real kiss
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
LOL okok
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
i m always rdy onli dno u rdy anot ~ lalala

I wan to be Mrs.Hong !!!! =X

when when when?

yawns~ another day has gone~ keke.