today just a normal quiet day. woke up in the afternoon eyes very pain until very hard to open. sighh... it seems nth special. just dota, maple, audi gb. no more. really dont know wad can i do. my fren say, this month is a breaking month! maybe i shld agree?

cannot bring myself up! sigh. when can i stop! i really cant take it le. its dark in it.

this afternoon i blogged something long, but i was so chim xim i deleted everything. i cried. i cant stop crying these few fcking days. i felt so lousy oh man...

well that fcker ern says that he studies IT n can check my things LOL? so its hacking la? i can call police lor. fcking cb study IT big fck meh?

seriously guys really sometimes get me so pissed off, stop hiding things from me if im ur true fren, if im not den leave me alone la, I DONT NEED SUCH FRENS LAH. I GOT MORE BETTER FRENS. i dont mind lesser 1. lesser problem oso lor. 1 by 1 like that. i really dont know wad to say.

today i talked to my ex which is like 3yrs back. i asked him why he did those stuff to hurt me in the past but well i got the answer which i wanted to ask like 2yrs plus back.

after crying n stuff i will stand up again! cool man.

ZEO I WAN U TO KNOW, IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U. AND ALWAYS =)

yes and i love you #CsN MY LAUGHTER THESE FEW DAYS COMES FROM YOUR GUYS! really. apprieciate that. MUACKS MUACKS.

just had a game. cool. use bug somemore. wth lo. so obvious. zzz.

ling pls lo i oni telling u lor. who has the problem with it sia?

there's nothing to blog today. hais...

EMO !

ok after emo-ing now update. hahahaha.! incredible baby having 2 meals of mac. kns. hahahahaaa

im so happy !! HAPPY ~~~~~

I WANNA GET MARRIED IN 2YRS TIME. ANY SUITORS? ^^

today forget to call bert bert to wake up =\ haha n woke up at 1230 den go grandma house with my mother. my grandma is sick. lol~ n my cousin pass me vcd .. wah kao eh full of dust oso dont wan to clean for me. lol.

now is 347am! haha. wanted to slp earli but.. hai.. heart broken. i really dont know how to understand guys le.

i felt tired. why like that. why now is guys that doesnt likes to say much things n like to keep to themselves? i felt kinda tired. im so afraid to fall in love again! alot of guys keep keeping secrets n dont wanna tell me! or got things hide to themselve. i really kind of tired. they make me so scare. 1st was 1 of my ex who keeo things n i found out he timer me! 2nd is another ex of mine oso dont like to share n we always quarrel cos i really know too little. wad the world turning into ? i really confused. tonight i really cried out of confusion. i really dont know how to carry on. sigh... why so tiring now? darn emo now... my best fren is my " chou chou " bolster who wipes my tears!

n lyn U GOT MAPLE DUN WAN ME SADDED. u another 1 break my heart.

as for zeo, wah piang eh i really pissed of with u leh. u always say call me back den u nvr call back i wanna volcano erupt le lor. zzzz.... if u find me den u find me, im not going to find u, its like calling u from 100000km away!

bert, come to a thought i really doubt we can be together. u told me ur parents traditional. u're well educated. im not. im older den u oso. i dont have anything to match with ur family. i dont wan to put u in difficult position. i dont wan u to " throw " face also. dui bu qi. if u ever read my blog u will know why i tell u not to like me. sry if i did play with ur emotion.

我好难过 T_T

well, another day past. haha. what did i do today?

woke up ate duck rice. den alicia n rong break. zzzz so shocking! sadded. den play audi watch tv do abit revision KNN!! i so lousy tmd. LOL den play dota.

mom dye-ed hair. lame shit. lol! i wanna cut hair! my cousin show me a website with loads of hairstyle. damn! i dont know wad to choose. lol.

stupid ling got maple bf dont care me go die la!!!!! last time dota audi find me now maple bf dun wan me. shooo shooo !!

another day past. yeayea!!

well the "hawker" not gonna start next month. sadded. " yi chang huan xi yi chang kong" cos no space. zzz.

Zeo go slp le. drown died.

today played 3rds of dota. 2 rds with darling! wooo smelly sia haha. planning to open a " kampong hut" chalet to relax n have fun! yeayea! cant wait tat day! lol. n haf a taste of it. nvr try b4 leh. n less den 5 ppl to BBQ hahaha! thats lame. what a boring day! haha..

Woke up at eight plus to reply a "gd morning" to him. den went back to slp until 2plus. haha. than surf the net for some stuff. 5plus receive a msg saying he called me early afternoon but i dont answer anonymous number haha as there's many stupid agent will call n ask the things over and over again so pek chek lo! i called him at 11pm n he said he is busy n will get back to me, well all i have to do is wait ? yea, i guess. always say call me back, chances are very low of him calling me back lah MR CHIA!

yea! 2am! finally saw text from him yea. but i guess he gonna slp soon. well =)

Left house at 6pm, at downstair waiting for ling to take cab on the way fetch me to BBDC for revision class. Till about 930pm reached home at about 1010pm.

Im not moving to yishun le! Weee~ The house sold. But mom like it alot lah~ Will be finding some where else.

Just talked to my very very old fren. knew him when i was 14!! haha, but its like 1 yr i oni tok to him once. damnit lol.

i get irritated. lately i really dont bother wad ppl think n thought. i really want to have my own space. and now finally, IM FREE~ =) TOTALLY FREE.

After 3months 13days, it ended. after 1month plus of strugglings n hard thoughts. it finally ended. =)

new layout. hope its pretty fine. feeling very moody lately. really hate ppl treat me as spare tire. getting sick of everything. really cant get to commit a thing. ANiceGuy used to chat often. Than lately didnt chat, get hooked by someone else? Telling me that, recently only talks to one girl. so i guess it must be that girl he is obesses with now.And forget me, and tell me that even he has a gf im still his fren. LIAR! Havent together already forget me. Im easily forgotten. Why must guy be like " oh im bored den i come and tok to u " WTFAKKK

Than Zeo? Got GE dont wanna talks to me, still tells me " i quit the game u to tok to u u dont apprieciate". As if i ask you to do so! Look! Out of 10 message i got only 1 reply at times.If in MSN i nudge 10times if im lucky i'll get replies in 15mins, if im unlucky maybe there wouldnt be any reply ! wah kao eh! how to commit like that? Like that 10yrs later i no BB liao la! neh neh poke.

What has this world turning into?

Im really at a lost. I dont love him. How do i do to not to hurt him? Wah Kao. Everyone's getting more attitude problem. What has it turned to? How to commit with someone like that? Why everytime loves turns out to be the other way? You love him, but he dont. He loves you, but you dont. WTF?!?! Now, whoelse loves me? this is crazy lah. I am crazy too.

Suddenly felt tired of everything and started to cry for no reason.
Its so hard to find someone with a comfy arms. =))
Lol?