-Wednesday, 31 October 2007-5:34 am Y
yawns~ morning all =) its 535 am! came back not long ago, was at dumdum hse slping lah ! wanted to go somewhere to meet my gan papa den GG like pig. ... =) had a gd slp ! monday went to work~ after work went to meet dar n jeff n headed to JC hse. n ended up didnt go work. ahahha!! hmmm... yeap! ytd at JC hse saw dar's laptop... with a conversation with yixin... and his comment to her, just saw it, she came to view me. but well... =) its gotta be fine i guess.
kinda angry, he has nvr bring anything up to me b4, but told so much to his bros. im his gf! its btw me, he cant tell me? duhh~? =) i dont expect my bf to keep everything n doesnt wants to share/tell me anything. i dont change for him, but i do change for myself. if its gd i will heed it.
so far so gd, =) seeing him everyday. even thou he doesnt talk much about wad had happen in the past, i felt that i could sense a little, by ladies 6th sense? lols. i jus hope wad i've done, would want him to get his phobia off. so far i guess i didnt did anything wrong behind him... =) who doesnt get hurts in the past?
its been 1 week, and its a busy 1 week =)
-Monday, 29 October 2007-2:32 am Y
its a busy/tiring weekend! hahas~
sat slept till quite late~! went service at expo with dumdumdar, jiale and jeff. met jeff gf, wendy. VERY PRETTY =) service was fine, just that maybe its not used to it making me wanna fall aslp! haha... den headed to songka with them... after that... this kuku jeff cannot make up his mind wanna go where, in the end... wanted to go geylang the LIP Disco but was close n ended up at sultan~ zzzz... went there for a drink n headed back with dumdum... wanted to meet my sec sch fren! but arghhh... no calls... den end up slping at dumdum hse! wanted to go back at 6am... but end up piggying there... hahas...
so wad haf i done today? went home n shower... dumdum came too... well, my grandma was in.. but she got bad memory... getting worst i guess.. so it gonna take some time to let her remember HIS stuff... n acc dumdum to his grandma place while waiting i played mahjong... from my lappy... n to ikea queensway and last!!!! jiale hse... and that went to eat!
just now, to think back, i count myself lucky, why? becos, i'm actually with someone i felt very easy and comfortable which i dun need to hide anything from him. further more, its very relaxing... in a r/s there's a no need to act.. or to be shy of? or to frens oso. a true fren will accept who u r, n not wad u act as. a true frenship is to be able to go thru thick n thin too. being with this dumdum, there's a no need to act gentle LOL n im jus being myself n he's too. jus like when im with ling, im being myself! to think back, im lucky to finally actually met someone who's like this. definately i'll do the things which is right... so far so gd, we didnt argue b4, and definately i dont wan it to happen. haha!! to maintain is to solve it tgt. and not to oneself. to give and to take it may not be easy, we have to balance it. but to to be yourself is very impt! if he/she loves you. as long as we're happy, the past will be over! well, this time round, i want to stable this r/s! =) its very hard to find someone which you can get along withay... i havent been cherishing any guys after 3yrs... now, i do, i will =) i smile to slp and not cry to slp anymore =) not much words could actually explain my feelings now... but, im happy =) hahaha~ another gd thing is, my dearest dun snore when he slp =x he jus simply loves to irritated me. ass.~~ xD
his dum drawing lol, he jus drew it !
不懂装懂。。。像个马桶 says:
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
-Friday, 26 October 2007-1:32 am Y
finally the sadness has ended in a day =)
finally we're tgt. the day that im yearning for. =) 25 oct ' 07 !!! xD
he said he saw me emo rwar~ when was in cab almost cry again but was toking to melvin kor! while in work was so tired keep fall aslp! >.< n didnt haf the mood to do anything. went to bugis and collect my jeans! den went grandma hse awhile n meet ling to go n drink! had no appetite to eat for the whole day =( too sad to even think of eating but to make myself extremely busy at work to ease everything off. evening everything was fine! =) and i went down to look for this piggy too !! hehee...
felt bad about wad had happen...thou it was a rude movement ... but at least... we will talk abt it n make things clear! yesyes!! when there's a prob in a r/s do speak up to maintain n share!! thx for clearing my dum assuming.
exam's coming soon~~ wooo~
FINALLY =)) ... love you so =)
im happy that i see you everyday!
im happy that we're finally tgt!
im happy that we could talk things out peaceful!
im happy that i have you!
IM SO CONTENTED AND HAPPY =)
-Thursday, 25 October 2007-5:55 am Y
there's knife stabbing deep in my heart right now that i cant breathe properly. why am i so stupid to go n see? im so lost. wad am i? how much do i stand? i saw it. i just cant breathe. wad shld i do ? currently he is slping at my place. why does he have to come to my place when he haf done that? i really felt hurt badly. why giving me hope yet...? if there's no hope i rather know it now... i cant slp... i dunno wad tmr will be. why does bad things comes tgt? so much things to say. its going to be a secret that kept in my heart.
i really cant breathe for now.
i would rather to lose it now.
even now. its not tgt, i felt deeply hurt.
1st time dropping tears for him.
he said those things to her which has nvr happen to me.
am i not gd enuff?
im so lost.
-Wednesday, 24 October 2007-1:29 am Y
just came back.. well actually came back at 8plus and went out to meet my sec sch fren ! hehee.. stupid bitch! nvr change keep hitting me! hahaha!!! i so nice to bully isit? yeap and meet jeffery!! rofl~ this is him...
well.. HE IS NOT MY DARLING FOR SURE xD he is trying to do some lame things!!
met them at holland had a short chat with ZZY!! and see jeffery doing magic! haha...
after work went to bugis meet dumdum darling... haha walk whole lvl 2 n 1 cannot find dorothy zzz!! den go eat n he acc me go home!! his dumdum!! my grandma ask him come in he dun wan! dunno shy wad backside oso... lols. can see that he's tired lah!! slept in the bus!! SNAPSHOT.
took it while he's slping... =x hahahaha!!! k lah thx baby tired still make you pei wo dao 1am >.<
im very happy =) ZHEN DE HEN KUAI LE. seriously i hope this happiness will not end! even if there's problems occurs... HAPPINESS WILL ALWAYS BE MORE DEN SADNESS. =) when will you be mine :~
im so in love with you LOLOL~ ok im crazy today ... tmr OT cant see him HAIS. LOLOL. dad going aus le! haiiiiiii~~~~~
JIALE JIA YOU O! LOLOL~ GL FOR YOUR EXAM.
GDNIGHT!
-Tuesday, 23 October 2007-12:49 am Y
yoyos~ xD
ytd didnt come here! well.. actually did login but didnt knoe wad to blog. for very long time i didnt get to slp as much as i could which i used to wake up like 3 - 4hrs ago.. but now i can be like a piggy that slps for long hrs again! haha. well, ytd was a simple day, met him at my place. and my mom saw him DUHH~ headed to mac. i study abit lor... n went back @ 11plus o.o
today took half day... went to sch to pay something n then went to eat at griller! fish n chip xD n shop shop for awhile.. didnt buy anything... wait got SOMEONE make noise anyhow spend money buy n buy.. haha.. and went to buy one slice of mango cake gif him. idiotic xD. WAITED FOR HIM DOWNSTAIR NEARLY 1HR SO ANGRY ZZZZZZZZ. dumtard. went to clementi meet jiale... they play 1 round billard is like DAMN LONG LAHHH. had dinner... n went to arcade rofl~ just now cut my toe nails! accidentally poke till bleed :~ hahaha~ dumb enuff... i havent tried a day not meeting you, i wonder how does it feels? =]
before i buy the mango cake i had asked jiale to double cfm about it. but he said it was a bad choice becos i told jiale that i saw his frenster that he indicated " his fav mango cake " which is bought by his ex gf. but since its the past why shld i bother i wonder? maybe he might get upset? but... ITS HIS FAV isnt it? well ... i jus hope he likes it! i still remember when the 1st time i n him go cabana he drank mango juice =x
thanks for letting me to know your bros, n get to know you even better! there's more to come im sure of it. =)
he has actually came into my life n brighten it day by day. seeing his smile and having his nuisance are actually some kind of "bits" of stupid dum happiness which i hope to see him everyday too ! but he sure get sick of it de lah! he has enlighten my day, going work with no worries and get my job done! used to be rather emo period n cant get my stuff done correctly... but he is someone who showed me something new about a guy ! someone tats interesting.. thou he did say something thats " real " bad... but i guess it takes 2 hand to clap =) to strive and to perserver =) i believe in a long lasting r/s everyone has to be strong to it n objective =)
well, i didnt know he doesnt feels like going out today if not i wun have ask him out le. i felt bad that i keep asking him out n didnt even asked if he's tired not >.<
i think im gettng more n more dum ! hhahahaha...
today kenneth sms me, asking me a dum qns, why i didnt accept him in the past.. sometimes i really dunno wad to say about him.. always got r/s with april, who's my fren den he come n tok to me den i become the middle person, well, once in a while i dun mind ! i can help i sure help de lor... but its over le why still bother? u like to " lum char bor oso " u shld think for urself! and why would i like this kinda person? im nt a toy ok? you're not my type neither am i urs. i felt that wad u told me about your new girl its like, u're using money to buy her... DUHHH !! WAKE UP UR FCKING IDEAS MAN. =)
any recommendation for nice food? :D
thx baby for everything! =)
i just simply love this guy ! =)
i've decided not to upload his pic. it would be my personal folder! xD
GDNIGHT PEEPS. HUGGIESS.~
-Sunday, 21 October 2007-6:23 am Y
woot~ its 615 am ! xD~
went shopping spree again rofl~ >.<>.< ~ yeayea gotta collect it next week huh.. =) and... went to ECP again ! to eat dinner with ling... den headed home. its been a long time i had a gd slp... well... since dunno how mani months i didnt slp like a pig!! 15hrs !! >.< im loving it. rofl~
heard my dad going australia to work ! 3 months ! hais, WHY CANNOT BUY FLAT LE DEN GO ?!?! IM GOING CRAZY @ HOME .......~~
yeapyeap went to see my dum dum jus now ! b4 that i went home to change shorts n slipper ! bought fries for darling ! wait for him pang sai come down ... zzzz ~~~ COLD LIAO LAH !!! den met sec sch fren, jeffery. hahaha... ~
eeee blogger got problem now i cant UPLOAD ANY PICS >.< yeap =")">.< well.. i kinda afraid of getting hurt.. so i will do things which i know it can be done.. certain things shld can be definate.. some cant... i do believe =) only he haf the urge to make me stop playing games n wanting me to see him more often... i jus feel comfortable n relax when im with him thats where the sense of feeling comes froom after 3 yrs =) well, as for lester ... let it be the past ba! now ... i have gary O.o he would be better den lester ! i wun shed any tears anymore =) is he bastard me !! ^^
c2p dumdum darling!! im gonna post your pics once the error is done !!
*hugs*
-Saturday, 20 October 2007-12:36 am Y
back to updates... went shopping @ vivo just now ... =) bought my cushion finally! had a sunglass n a top too =) kind of bored at work... have been playing games like 4 days... and oni do bits of work.
didnt have dinner... kinda having fever now... im hungry too... but doesnt feels like eating... today's bad day i shld say? accidentally open the door n banged on ling ! she dum nahh !! walk snake... den black face!! rwar~ but we took e same cab... she ok already ! she is crazy !! went to print my econ's note... hope i pass bah. =( very sad that i fail !
darling went back without me today ! say hao le go back tgt... n miscommunicate >.<>.<>
my bad for my bad mood attitude today.. i guess it pissed you off. if its me i will get upset too... but i was stuck in the middle i dunno wad to do. all i want was to spend sometime with you! its uneasy when i dun feel u irritating me n ard me =)
awaiting for the next meet up with my darling. ROFL. =) <3
me n him just maple only =) pls dun misunderstand it >.<
total eclipse of the heart - * he's the puzzle of my heart *
-Friday, 19 October 2007-12:05 pm Y
kind of tired today... ytd reach home didnt shower !! i KO le >.<>.<
ytd after work went to meet dumdum at IMM.. duhhh... walk till my leg pain... IMM to Jurong East to IMM to Jurong East again >.< down ="]">
i remember the part dat gary said, " jia le jia you o " ROFL~
JY Bah.. all the best.. =)
ytd was kind of emo ! cos make me walk here n there... and tired too... rwar~ this dumdum tou kan my sms last night zzz... RWAR!!~ ytd very happy =) too gd to be true... i cannot believe wad had happen... maybe its just a short while ? =) i dont know ... but i dun wan to be awhile ! =] i wan it forever.. lollolololl... it would be gd if i can see him often too =x ok that's fat hope =)
dumdum darling gary u didnt go sch !!!! ahh... c2p leh... make me so lonely in msn =~ call so many times dun wan ans... i wan go ur hse tear ur hse down soon liao !!! next time dun make u go back so late! 10pm must make him go home n slp >.<
ytd sms ling, telling her about this guy ahhh....... den he go read my msg... well, kinda low morale when i heard he has alot of girls.. =] den he say le come suan siao me >.< ! so bad d.
slowly i will find that if 1 day i dun see him n he dun irritated me i really BU ZHI ZAI !! ahh... =( am i really a shitter? maybe we lame ard too much that u dunno which of my words are truth... =x wei she mer ah wei she mer... =x LOLLOLOLOLLO~ i just simply loves the time we spent tgt =) ... he could make me luff till i wanna fall ^^ always qi fu me!! rwar~!! dont ask me if we;re tgt or not! cos i oso dunno >.< to ="x">
while blogging i listened this song.. tats random played...
MLTR (MICHAEL LEARNS TO ROCK) LYRICS
You Took My Heart Away"
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you saw me through
Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love
[Chorus:]
You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everythingand a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life
Living in a world so coldyou are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love
[Chorus:]
You took...
Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone
=X
AHHHH DARLING WO XIANG NI AHHHH =Z
back to work =)
-Thursday, 18 October 2007-2:18 am Y
kind of tired... well was late for work like 10mins... kind of boring thou...
two days le.. kevin didnt msg me =) i dont find him he wouldnt find me bah... o.O??
after work went to shop shop awhile... den headed to holland meet dumdum... we walked from holland to my old sch place.. ghim moh >.<>.< too =")">.<>.< its painful =] i know de... =]~ sry ... lol... who ask u bully me lah !
suddenly haf the urge to view horoscope nowadays... thou.. it was a gd match... but suddenly i felt emo about it... becos, its totally so nice n beautiful... but ... he's not mine ! =(
here it goes ...
Yes, and they will get together and write a great play and produce it for Global TV. These two are earthy, practical and devoted. Capricorn toils and Virgo serves. (Source: AquarianAge Romance )
For Virgo: This is an excellent union. Practicality and neatness go hand in hand for the Goat as well as for you. Fear of material loss locks you in tight for a long term union. ( Source: Love Test )
For Capricorn: This is a very good mental connection, nevertheless not the most sexually oriented combination. ( Source: Love Test )
They admire each other and live to please each other. Each gives the other exactly what they need without asking for it. ( Source: Astrology Fun )
Virgo Man & Capricorn Woman
This is a match that has a good chance of turning into real, lasting love. Capricorn girls and Virgo boys are often attracted to each other, as much because of personality as looks. You admire each other’s style and the way you lead your lives. He likes the same kind of lifestyle you do and you’ll be very similar socially and in what you like to do with your spare time. You have an intensity within you that will inspire him to be more passionate. You’ll bring out a deep-feeling, romantic side in him that most people don’t get to see. You will have good chemistry and you’ll feel secure and cared for with him. An excellent match for love. (Source: Jellybean's Astro-Soulmate Guide )
Virgo boy simply adores his Capricorn girl, and sees potential in you that sometimes even you don't recognize. This relationship can be stellar when Virgo boy encourages you to aim higher. Like you, he recognizes the importance of hard work, and he'll never shut you down for wanting to spend a Friday night studying for a test rather than hitting the town. An inspirational match! ( Source: FUNgirl - Astrology )
if im not xiao qi that shows i dont concern / care abt ... u...?
wo de xin hen luan =) ~
nights peeps...
-Wednesday, 17 October 2007-1:53 am Y
my day ending soon =) gonna go to bed... enjoyed working today... hope my working days will have fun all the way xD~ thou there's 20+ ppl there.. but i cant remember all... slowly bah >.<
hahas... today my HOD... my direactor n my HR manager had some conflicts lols... kind of funny... well everyone didnt like the HR... when the HR 1st call me i didnt like him too... so attitude n not humourous at all lor! sucky! n when i asked him who shld i look for when i go for interview... he said he stated it n BOLD it!! bold his kuku lah! feel like saying back him but i didnt... i thought he was nice when i was there to sign my contract and getting my stuff done... but later this thing happen...
aw~ sucky... today didnt take dinner... kind of .. zzzzz well... had ate something jus now but not finished... left 3/4 like that cos gastric pain till full lols... went to URS to buy a sandal.. cos of my sickening blister.... n bought a top too ... =x i guess im gonna be lazy to be play games again... now i enjoy going out even if its window shopping ! =)
have to do my assignment n hand up on monday.. kind of tired.. exam coming soon too.. hope i pass my module =) MrLion says im a shitter + bimbo ... :~
my old fren keep on disturbing me ... rwarr~~ cannot take it anymore xD~
well.. as i expected.. if i didnt look for him.. he wun look for me too... everytime only others would come n tell me wad happen... Virtual.. Real Life.. someone better =) its time to move on...
Gary Huang shi get da ben zhu !
<3 darling
i where got lie to you..
teng ni duo lai bu ji le !
-Tuesday, 16 October 2007-4:43 pm Y
woot ~ am at work now !! playing pangya!!
had a wonderful day ytd !! ~ hehee... went out with sis and her daughter =) treat her sushi! n went to perm my hair so not nice i found out!! gonna re-do it again! shopping spree ytd !! hahaa... spend 180 on hair! >.< n bought some shoe!! eww ~ have blister now... cos wearing new shoe... n met my " darling " cum " ahpa " shuai ge too !! rofll.... all of us went to bugis... den later i bring him go east coast!! ahhh didnt grill him =x guess he was tired n dunno is purposely overslept or wad lo... hope time faster end ! so boring!!
yeayea as usual will upload my hair pics n his irritating face LOL !! cos he always use the fone !!! =( make me so lonely! baka !! =)
i wan more shopping spreeeee~
stupid irene mama xD wo mai shi ok?
i know u will see this...
DARLING WO AI NI LOLL ~~ go holland hunt u down! xD
-Sunday, 14 October 2007-5:53 pm Y
yawns~ kind of tired... today is sunday !
friday dar ignore me whole day.. hais..
well i guess im gonna get use to it when he is out with his fren that he wouldnt contact me bah... its always like this... i dont know why... maybe im over concern? is it gd to be like that?
sat was jacky's bday... went to pub at boat quay to drink... den went to club @ 97 >.< to drink... den headed back to boat quay to eat... kind of " drunk " haha.. vomitted 5times...sighhh...
sometimes i just feel that sometimes i need a little bit more of care... went to meet my maple mama mcuties.. xD we went to watch movie n eat sushi ! hehe.. den she wennt to pub with me too~ weeee...
sometimes i really feel lonely. ~.~
i miss you ~
-Tuesday, 9 October 2007-4:51 pm Y
yeayea finally married with dar le ~
ytd got married.. thanks to all who came to my wedding... the pics will be post under slides at the right hand side...
yeap went for interview today ... waited for like 30mins n interview for like 40mins... tues start work le !! hehee...
ytd dar was sick... haha lao sai !!!! shuang ma xD~ =x take care o dar ... cant get lunch for u today... another day ok? =x when u recover we go for pizza!!! hehe.... gonna start sch next week le... we jy tgt ok? muack... !
ok going to sch now~
-Sunday, 7 October 2007-1:59 am Y
ytd went to meet fren den go ktv >.< hais very upset... just went movie with mel.. Lust Caution... its ridiculous show... chatted with guardian via sms today... he told me to trust him n talk things out with him... as in dltergent bah... i really cannot forgive myself to be so soft hearted... why did he haf to lie to me again n again? why ppl make empty promises... ? im so lost now... hais... im trying hard to forget wad had happen... but now...
if im unhappy being with you... i would haf let it off earlier on.. why would i hang on? can u be jus more truthful... honest to me ? why do u haf to lie to me ?
i dunno why its so hurting... its more hurting then getting urself injured...
wo zhen de hen nan guo....
break up will be the best choice...
my tears... cant stop flowing ... hais
-Friday, 5 October 2007-1:45 pm Y
yawns~ cant slp well >.<>
wad a saddening 1month i had with him... my dream tarnished... i jus recall.. those sms he had with her... they slp tgt.. tickle each other? playing with his hair? wth am i ? i felt betrayed... he knows i likes him... he says he likes me... wad is this? really no hope... wo bu guan le.... sry doesnt mean anything much now i guess... actions prove everything... i remembered there was once u told me we tgt for both maple n real life... after his personal chalet... everything changed... he say he is confused too... maybe he is confused who he likes... he say he not ready for it now... maybe he doesnt know who to choose... i guess in his heart... im drifting away... if u dun likes me , u could jus tell me n we could jus break off... why do i haf to be treated this way ...? wad did i did wrong? when he having his chalet.. he told me.. he will call n sms me.. but he didnt... too busy with the girl? i dont wnna be a spare ... hais... >.<
pls tell me to go... if u dont wan me anymore...
i guess he likes her... he choose to go out with her den pei-ing me... he promised to pei me till sunday ... out 1st month he goes out with other girl? i really dunno wtf am i ... WAD THE FCK AM I ?? just a fcking dump girl... =)
i asked my fren, would u choose to go out with a girl or to pei ur " gf " 1month anni... he said... the girl i like...
so i guess .... hais......
or isit im too good that he dun wanna let go till he make sure he finds 1? >.<
i say him till like so bad... afterall he is niceguy bah. =)
maybe im gonna start to MIA again... i shld leave... n let it go...
<<<> bring me up.. dont tarnish my dream, hope n love on you... it was so beautiful.... really beautiful....
thx to those who chatted with me. =)
dejected... tarnished....
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suddenly i have another thoughts... hais ~ so mani ppl say so mani diff things to me >.<
sry dar if my sms was harsh till now im lost.... hais
--3:05 am Y
just came back from outside ! weeeee went to sch today. ouch ! my assignment gone case >.<
hais i cant slp again, my wish gone. i wanted to marry with him on the 1st month... but i guess it cant... another is... does he really care for my feelings? hais...
i cried suddenly, i dont know why im turning... do i suffer from depression again? =X i felt so jealousy now... didnt slp for 2 days... maybe wad ling say, i shld be more objective... but i cant bear to... thou he may not know wad i've done... i just want him to be happy in everything he does. =)
thx dar for all the explaination >.<
baby, i wan u to be xin fu =) from the bottom of my heart. i dont yearn to haf you... just want you to be happy =)
-Thursday, 4 October 2007-4:33 pm Y
yawns... didnt slp well... cant get to slp >.<>.<>.< so naughty ah !! rwar~ =x yeayea today gonna marry le xD~ muack baby...
we will be xin fu in virtual =) u're my best baby. muack!
after awhile im fine, i kept thinking about tmr. hais
sch~~~
suddenly i found this >.<
-Wednesday, 3 October 2007-11:35 am Y
just back from chalet. slept little. had a great time with my frens.
thanks ling, xiaoling, dar, fennie mei, jacky, saint and ber to come down n haf fun!
thou there's ups n downs in it but im contented.
didnt go sch ... eww~ cos got no mood to go.dar must be angry >.<
im left with,
1000000x kiss.
20 real kisses .
1 heart
1 ring
7 hrs
1 eyemo
1 breakfast
1 mega ...
and ...one him? *daydream*
monday slept at 5am... was crying since 11pm till 430 or so... im so emo. thou its hurting to see wad he says... the fear of losing him shld be gone thou it may not be so fast... i'll try to get over it. i promise... we'll be a happy couple in maple. i fighted for wad i want... i hope n asked for wad i want... now its up to him... thou that night was abit too forcey i wun do that again... in silence... i was so bad.. i disturb while u were having fun n throwed tantrum... i read your msg-es becos i felt uneasy... i didnt gif you any privacy... i was so fear that i wld lost you... thats why im doing all this foolish acts... im sorry, if u gonna get angry i've nth to say. im so lack in confident and faith in myself now... i fell many times.. i dont wish to fall again... in another way i would think am i too old for him? or there's smth bad abt me for him ? thou at times when i really needed you most you aint there, i was furious but i was happy in the end, u made me smile =)
hope you enjoy your friday n get to b with e girl soon... im sure if no guy were to be interested in the girl..*am always making wild guess >.< " dumdum me. the text wouldnt be in this way... yeap, im not your gf. i cant do anything but to keep quiet
. ok lets talk abt smth happy =) maple gonna patch on thurs! new wedding system things out !
waiting for my dar to marry me =x muacks!
almost dropped tears again.
loving someone isnt haf to be with him...
just hoping he'll be happy in wadever he do. =)
im starting to miss you again. =)
thx for everything my precious dar.
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i just called him, and guess wad? he is slping.... when i told him that i'll be online waiting for him.. its like 3hrs... hais.. cant he even tell me he is tired n wanna slp? n not letting me to wait so long...? hais.. when will this stop? i dont know.
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yeapyeap, after a slp i felt so fine now =) i called baby n he answer ! ew! my piggy dar... =) waited for him 2hrs for him to totally wake up ! well, was browing nexon maplestory to look for me the upcoming new hair style =x haha... kind of a joke... and hunting stuff with baby now.. and he did this stupid thing about his hair >.<
abianother lame pic >.<>
i believe that happiness is just a short time... well... kinda low morale now =) why do i feel that we're so close like a couple when we're not even. why do i feel that there's a chance btw us when u said u're not ready.... but after wad i saw... i collapse... i dont know wad im thinking now... do u still feel the same as wad u used to feel for me?? if not pls tell me so.. hais. >.< those stuff keep appearing on my mind. :~
why does it comes to night im always like this? RWAR. stupid me =)
wo de xin hen luan... hen luan... im lost.
