just back from chalet. slept little. had a great time with my frens.

thanks ling, xiaoling, dar, fennie mei, jacky, saint and ber to come down n haf fun!

thou there's ups n downs in it but im contented.

didnt go sch ... eww~ cos got no mood to go.dar must be angry >.<

im left with,

1000000x kiss.
20 real kisses .
1 heart
1 ring
7 hrs
1 eyemo
1 breakfast
1 mega ...

and ...one him? *daydream*

monday slept at 5am... was crying since 11pm till 430 or so... im so emo. thou its hurting to see wad he says... the fear of losing him shld be gone thou it may not be so fast... i'll try to get over it. i promise... we'll be a happy couple in maple. i fighted for wad i want... i hope n asked for wad i want... now its up to him... thou that night was abit too forcey i wun do that again... in silence... i was so bad.. i disturb while u were having fun n throwed tantrum... i read your msg-es becos i felt uneasy... i didnt gif you any privacy... i was so fear that i wld lost you... thats why im doing all this foolish acts... im sorry, if u gonna get angry i've nth to say. im so lack in confident and faith in myself now... i fell many times.. i dont wish to fall again... in another way i would think am i too old for him? or there's smth bad abt me for him ? thou at times when i really needed you most you aint there, i was furious but i was happy in the end, u made me smile =)

hope you enjoy your friday n get to b with e girl soon... im sure if no guy were to be interested in the girl..*am always making wild guess >.< " dumdum me. the text wouldnt be in this way... yeap, im not your gf. i cant do anything but to keep quiet

. ok lets talk abt smth happy =) maple gonna patch on thurs! new wedding system things out !

waiting for my dar to marry me =x muacks!

almost dropped tears again.

loving someone isnt haf to be with him...

just hoping he'll be happy in wadever he do. =)

im starting to miss you again. =)

thx for everything my precious dar.

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i just called him, and guess wad? he is slping.... when i told him that i'll be online waiting for him.. its like 3hrs... hais.. cant he even tell me he is tired n wanna slp? n not letting me to wait so long...? hais.. when will this stop? i dont know.

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yeapyeap, after a slp i felt so fine now =) i called baby n he answer ! ew! my piggy dar... =) waited for him 2hrs for him to totally wake up ! well, was browing nexon maplestory to look for me the upcoming new hair style =x haha... kind of a joke... and hunting stuff with baby now.. and he did this stupid thing about his hair >.<






abianother lame pic >.<>







i believe that happiness is just a short time... well... kinda low morale now =) why do i feel that we're so close like a couple when we're not even. why do i feel that there's a chance btw us when u said u're not ready.... but after wad i saw... i collapse... i dont know wad im thinking now... do u still feel the same as wad u used to feel for me?? if not pls tell me so.. hais. >.< those stuff keep appearing on my mind. :~

why does it comes to night im always like this? RWAR. stupid me =)

wo de xin hen luan... hen luan... im lost.