now its 3am, jus came back from holland, slept at dar's hse. duhh~ tired =] slept about 3hrs i guess, den went down to meet jeff. this dumass! new frens, new probs. new things to learn from wad others have faced. ytd was a tired day, went to meet wendy n my sec sch mates. went to pub den went zouk... suppose would like to go back with dar but ~ well.. didnt have a chance to. lucky i din stay up with him.. he ended up quite late!

went bugis with mom ! hehe.. shop shop shop and got him a T =) hope he likes it. ^^

backache. sighh~

ytd evening was quite emo, actually i did wrote a post, but i was on doubt to post it out not.. cos i didnt want to say anything wrong n get misunderstanding. kind of like.. i quickly go home n thought of having dinner with him... but he said he going clubbing, that's when my heart felt downed. i din tell him.. but well, who doesnt needs freedom? sometimes too tight oso not gd... im learning to how to relax myself in a r/s but has to keep it tight too.. why? becos i dun really wanna see failure in this r/s as i really do put in my heart in le. =) i told myself, becos i dont know him very much well.. so i cant be too tight to him... slowly i will discover the depth part of him ... definately i dun wanna lose him. day by day ppl do grow up.. now its just the beginning ! thou it might be tough, we're strong to maintain it? i hope he has open up his heart to enter my life and open up to allow me to know every bits of him =) i used to dont allow my bf going clubbing or maybe if me or him going club we shld tag along tgt, but now... im having faith n trust in this guy. im not a perfect person or maybe i shld say im not a perfect girl to be gf, i cant expect everything i needed him to do. i used to not giving in to my bf n wants it my ways for the past few yrs. sometimes i really wonder shld i go n look for him everyday? would my presence be his disturbance... =) although he hadnt say anything about our r/s or any probs he has, im jus waiting to share with him =) im not being with someone due to i have to be with him, im being with him is becos i do loves him, and which has already entered part of me. im someone that sometimes i will think too much, im a person who actually ask for perfect. =)

Jeff and Wendy
i got to know wendy thru my dar n frens, a pretty nice girl. loving someone is hard =) i really wan to help them to reconile. but b4 i could step out n help, i guess it has ended. i dont really know wad had happen, b4 i could know it has come to the end !

Jeff : thou you're a gangster or wadever shit, i really dun gif a damn. =) i got so angry this evening when u sent me sms with " KNN " i haf to start to make some noise, sometimes learn to put urself into others ppl shoe n think, n not only ppl whose ard you n who are close to you, everyone are loved. not oni ppl around you. when you're a parent you will know wad im trying to imply. if you had known that your attitude is bad, why cant you jus change it for the seek of being nicer n better to yourself? is it so hard to even treat yourself gd? by mentally ill treat n to hurt yourself does it really worth? people haf to stay claim to settle things, if both side so harsh whose going to be the peace maker?

Wendy: i really hope you both know wad you're doing, its great to have you as fren, its even great that you would even calls me n tell me wad had happen when you knocked off. sry that i cant be there, becos when u called im in my doinky mode~ if you know there's something wrong why dont you be claim n talk n find solution?

seriously you both are having attitude probs. both aint claim, both aint steady. love a person is in this way? i thought it shld be this way... it takes 2 hand to clap, n you have to have a big heart to accept all comments inorder to commit it well. i hope you both can let me help you all to reconile and get the misunderstanding off N GET THE STUBBORNESS OF YOURS AWAY. dun fck ard with me =)

best wishes.

sometimes i do feel fear that if i bring things up to gary he would get angry n sometimes i really have to think twice, why? becos i cant afford to lose someone i love. or maybe to even hurt or allow them think likewise. be steady b4 u say anything that wouldnt make anyone think likewise n NOT saying harsh things, who knows it might not overcome.

at times, you might get to see things which hurt, wad can u do ? shout? quarrel? i dont know.. but i will jus keep quiet n hope he realise... thats the best way..if it cares it will definately say something, if it doesnt he can seriously fark off. becos it doesnt even cares how you feel, or maybe does it have feelings for you?

its all about him =)

its not i dont want you to come its i dun wan to see you get hurt or be angry. =) i just love your presence around me =) <3

× b Ö b b ÿ × says:
will this relationship last?
ΒӘĽĽ - . - says:
i hope =)
× b Ö b b ÿ × says:
ya ..bless u both from me :D
ΒӘĽĽ - . - says:
thx di =) i hope he is my last bf. i really do. haha